I tried to forget everything we’ve done together but something inside me screams “you still love him.” I kinda miss our movie nights when you suddenly don’t want to share your popcorn with me ‘cause you secretly got me my favourite snack. I yearn for your scent that I used to hate, how your whisper tickles my ear and sweet kisses just below my collarbones.. everything was right but I have yet ascertained if you loved me or not. I miss my cuddle buddy and I miss your face way too much.

So I woke up pretty early today, weird. It’s the 1st day of 2013 and here I am, writing an absurd post. Being home alone very early in the morning makes you realize tons of things. Makes me think of the people I sorely miss, to be exact. I don’t know where this post is heading but all I know is my need to vent.

2012 was undoubtedly a good year for me but something is still missing. I want to change my bad habits but writing a new year’s resolution is honestly, preposterous. One can always set a goal for himself/herself anytime of the year.

Another thing is, I am mad at myself for being this materialistic, selfish and uninspired. Not to mention an anonymous who successfully put my self-esteem down to zero. For these reasons, I just want to start over.

Alrighty, enough of this blabbing.. Let’s leave all the bad and negative behind in the old 2012 and take all the good and positive into the new 2013! 

P.S. my trail of thoughts is a tad fidgety, hence the sudden change of ideas.

Fat days are never over. Have you ever woken up and hated your self because you feel like you’re fat? You try looking in the mirror and all you can see is your big fat cheek, something like you’ve swallowed those giant jawbreakers and top it off with a bloated belly from eating too much junk.. UGH. Mornings like these are such a mood killer. 

Having said that, I stayed at home and curled up in my bed. Trying to find things that will motivate me and cheer me up, at the least. The highlight of the day? Me being a calorie-freak! I think I’m going crazzzzyyy. 

Anyways, I’m leaving you guys with this photo of me, being vain as usual. And oh, my teddy says, Hi.